So I think I am totally used to the kids being in school now.
I think this is the beginning of Week 5....I think.
They are loving it and all is going well.
I am not walking around in a complete fog wondering WHAT to do with myself.
Well, wait-- I kind of am but not because of the kids not being here but because I am trying to figure out what on earth to do with myself.
I need a job.
I know I said that here in this post, that I thought I needed to work to keep myself sane and not
be inside my cukoo-crazy-head too much but now I really need a job, as in I need a little income.
Up until a couple of weeks ago I worked about 4-5 hours per week in the evening, just two nights a week after Eric got home from work.
I never talked about it here because I worked alone in a building by myself after dark and although I
am not super-paranoid, I do watch TV and I knew better than to announce to the world wide web that I was alone in a building at night.
Now that I am not doing that anymore, which is for the best, I am definitely missing the extra bit of income.
So, the big question is...What to do now?
It needs to be super flexible, just a couple of days a week.
I need to be able to help out at school, and be here to get the kids to and from school.
I do not feel like I am ready to go back to my "real job" which was working for the school
district in more of an outreach/human services kind of job....or when/if I will ever be ready for that again.
Here's the thing-- and I feel a tiny but guilty admitting this out loud because I have a lot of compassion for those in need,
especially children and mothers in need/crisis, but I realized after I stopped working that I
was really getting burned out on that job.
The people and the depressing circumstances and the families we were supposed to be helping but when it came right down to it you never
really knew if you made a difference at all or not....
it's a lot. I needed a break in a serious way.
That being said, I do think there is a good possibility that I will eventually want to do something like that again, but maybe not just yet.
But who knows?
So, I am trying to think outside the box and come up with something that would fit the bill for all
of the above.
I am open to just about anything-- just about.
Okay- maybe not anything : )
I am also brainstorming things I can do here at home or with my shop because I feel like the timing could be a really good
opportunity for me....yikes... so much to think about.
Anyone else currently in this situation?
Happy, happy Monday!